Review for amazinfuckup
USERNAME / TITLE
It's not all that charming... And doesn't really give a very good impression. I don't think fuckups are all that amazing, and leaving out the g in "amazing" is just blah.
FIRST IMPRESSION
I really like the simple journal look to this particular layout. Impressive in a subtle type of way. This entry is making you look reeeally... Well let's just say I am going "ICH" and "hmm..." at the same time. Do you have a life at all? I am getting the impression of loser, but then I am compelled by how you are talking about still being a bad kid and a fuckup. How old are you anyway? Are you saving sex for marriage or something?? This is rare in today's generation. Oh, also, I have to admit that it took me more than 5 minutes to realise you were female. I did manage after a few entries to guess that you were 15, though you are turning 16 in a couple of weeks.
LAYOUT
It is so awesome. I have always been in love with layouts that are super simple and still nice to look at because they are like... Rebellious and uncaring. Besides it makes it so easy to read.
NAVIGATION / CONTACT
The navigation is right there on the top of the page, though there really is not much to navigate to. You have just a link to your notes section, but after a bit of searching I also managed to find an email address and an AIM screenname, though who knows if it's right anymore?
GRAMMAR
Thank god you know how to spell etcetera. It pisses me off so bad when people spell even the abbreviation wrong (ect instead of etc).
WRITING
You have so many entries. I could not possibly read even half of them. You are good at standing up for yourself. I like how you stick to your beliefs.
So you pierced yourself while looking for eyeliner. Why don't you say where? I am so extremely curious about this. I agree with you so much on your opinions against drugs. I wonder if maybe you saw someone you love fail in life over them like I did. Maybe you should consider though that you don't have to drink or have sex to run away from the anger and sadness in your life. You could do those things just to have fun and live, because you only have once chance to live. It doesn't mean that you're weak or that you aren't dealing with the things in your life. You are seeing too one-sided on that subject I think.
You are right. You are way too good at victimizing yourself, and I hate it. I hate reading about it and knowing that you're wrong and that you're only hurting yourself. The truth is, you think you're writing this stuff to get it out and heal, but what you're doing is making it permanent and more believable, more depressing, more overwhelming. It's a vicious cycle. There is not a girl, like you say, that I talk to because she is there or because she seems kind of sad. Maybe you are making this up in your head. Maybe you don't realise that you aren't the only person that people use as a person to vent to, because they feel like you understand. The hard thing to come to terms with is, you are good at understanding, giving advice and giving stories that relate. Most people are not. When you go to people with your problems and they can't say anything back, it is not because they don't want to or don't care but because they don't know what to say. People give you their problems because they don't know how to deal with them, and they don't know how to deal with yours, either. That lesson took me sooo long to realise.
This entry about cremating your dead guinea pig (which I don't really see the point of... Why not just bury him whole...) is incredibly well written, like I would read it in a book. You could definitely be a writer. And I mean, make money from it. It is so visual and flowing and... just good.
You are so angry about anything sexual, I think because you hate how it is no longer dependent on love. I agree with you about this because of all the girls I see around me ruining their innocence and whatever else with immature sex, but also I am offended because I did have sex out of love, a really deep love, at a young age. And I am still connected with him and I always will be, if only because of the past we share and the understanding. Also, it wasn't sex that I wanted from our relationship, and when it was sex it was simply the connection and meaning that it brought. There are good, wonderful, beautiful things about sex, that you should take into consideration at some point in your life.
Flowers are absolutely not useless. They are used in teas and spells and as decorations and subjects for paintings / photographs / poetry, perfumes, incense, gifts and potpurri, feng shui and making wishes. Not useless at all. Besides, how can you not admire their delicate innocent beauty?
Okay. For now I am done with the reviewing, though I will probably continue to read every entry in your diary. There are some things I want to tell you.
You are in love with your best friend whether it's admittable or not. What I would like to say is that someday he will figure out that he loves you too and you two will be together happily, at least for a little while, however I am suspicious about this because I can see you running away from it and ignoring it and letting the chance slip by you.
My suggestion is that you find love somewhere, somehow, because I know this stage that you are at in your life right now way too well, and you are not going to come out of it loving life and knowing/loving yourself unless you are loved and supported and KNOW that you are. This might seem crazy, impossible, ridiculous, but on the inside, in the dark, you are probably wishing desperately for it.
Keep. Writing.
Also, when you don't know what to do or you need someone to listen and help and there's nobody else, email me (octoamp@hotmail.com) or IM me (fionnachtain), because I can completely relate to you and I'll give you all the answers I can.
EXTRAS
Reviews you've been given and also a FAQ page (do people REALLY ask you those questions?) that is actually really interesting to read, hah.
WOULD I COME BACK?
I am interested to see which road you are about to go down.
09.07.04